My name is Nikki and my blog is an outlet for sharing the things I am most passionate about. I love travelling, yoga, writing, and eating Indian food. I am passionate about advocating for the special needs community and educating our youth around the world. I run a blog design business, Blogs For A Cause, and live in Toronto, Canada.

Friday, January 27, 2012

Update on Emma

Back in September I wrote a blog post about baby Emma of Sarah's Covenant Homes (see post here). It ended up being one of the most viewed posts I have written on this blog, as I know her story captured the hearts of so many readers. I wanted to provide an update.

Emma arrived at SCH in September looking like this:




No one was sure whether she would make it through the night. She had a host of disabilities including hydrocephaly, spina bifida, and club feet. She was sick with sepsis, tuberculosis, and meningitis. It was hard to hold her, as her head was so heavy and squishy with fluid. She needed shunt surgery, and many hospitals refused to work on her, saying there would be no point. She was vomiting often due to the pressure in her head. Her head circumference continued to grow.

In December, Emma was given shunt surgery to get rid of all the fluid in her head. She came out doing fairly well.




After CSF taps, being catheterized, being fed and loved on by her ayah, and being monitered closely at the hospital, Emma has started to turn around. After 5 months with SCH, Emma does not resemble the baby girl who was dying when she first arrived. Today, Emma was discharged from the hospital in Hyderabad and is going home to Ongole to live with a volunteer there who is caring for the most medically fragile kids. This is what she looked like today upon discharge:



When I asked Sarah what factors led to the transformatin she said, "It's due to so many different factors. She had klebsiella and candida sepsis, meningitis, tuberculosis...all treated, sludgy urine drained, CSF shunted, blood transfusions... I want to publicly thank Dr. CS Naidu and KIMS Hospital for taking a chance with this baby. Most of all, I want to thank the Lord Jesus and those who prayed for her. She really has a great chance now." Amazing donors have fully sponsored the costs of her care and hospital stays and surgeries.

I can't wait until I am back in India and can hold this miracle. She truly is just that. Emma was abandoned outside a hospital. Doctors refused to operate on her. So many were sure that she would die. But already in her short life she has inspired so many people. She has taught us about perserverence and the will to live. Sometimes people with special needs can be written off; they will never get better, focusing our energy on them is pointless. How can someone say this having seen Emma's transformation?

Emma is going to have a tough road ahead of her, but her life has so much value. Go to http://sarahscovenanthomes.blogspot.com and facebook.com/schindia to follow her journey.

Ayah Project:

While on the topic of SCH, please help us reach 70% of the Ayah Project!! Emma has come as far as she has with the help of her ayah, Manikyam, who is by her side, feeding her, cleaning her, kissing her, and caring for her. Right now there are so many children per ayah, that many kids are not able to get this 1:1 care that Emma has had. Many of the kids aren't able to meet their milestones without it. Help us raise the money to support two girls, April and Molly, to be supported by an ayah so they can thrive. Please spread the word and donate below! Click HERE to learn more.

Monday, January 23, 2012

Beautiful Things

All this pain
I wonder if I’ll ever find my way
I wonder if my life could really change at all
All this earth
Could all that is lost ever be found
Could a garden come up from this ground at all


I started my day by watching this:

Paint Day from SCH INDIA on Vimeo.


What a reminder of what is really important in life. Something so simple - painting - is so beautiful. These kids, once abandoned and deemed worthless, are smiling, are walking, are leaving their vibrancy on the paper before them.

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us


Sometimes it is so easy to get bogged down in the every day. I read recently that most people have 60,000 thoughts every day. 95% of those are exactly the same thoughts that you had the day before. So many of those are negative.

But what if they weren't?

What if we all lived life like the kids in that video do?

That is what I am striving to do; leaving work at work and keeping my computer closed. Making it to yoga more often, waking up thirty minutes earlier to read and meditate in the morning, writing a book, laughing more often, spending time with people I love and making sure they know how important they are to me. I consider myself a happy person. I am happy with my life, I have so many people here in Canada and around the world that I love. I shouldn't let a single negative thought enter my mind.

On Sunday I started my day with yoga. The message spoke to me, the time was just what I needed to have a fresh outlook. Afterwards I had a session with the little boy I volunteer with who has cerebral palsy. His Mom ran out to the store and the house was quiet. I brought out a box of musical instruments and he dumped them on the ground. I reached for the maraca and he found the cymbals. He struggles with fine motor skills and grasping objects, so these cymbals were perfect for him. We banged them together, making what can only be described as noise, and then Thomas began singing Kumbaya. A sweet smile spread across his face and he was so into the music. I heard noise and he found the opportunity to sing.

You make me new, You are making me new
You make me new, You are making me new


What's Inspiring Me Lately:
The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari
Seane Corn
Katie's transformation

Friday, January 13, 2012

Guate and Belize: Poverty and Development

Although the purpose of my trip, unlike others I have taken, was purely backpacking, it was impossible to ignore the poverty surrounding me. Being secluded on the island in Belize, it wasn't very striking to me there, but in Guatemala I feel like it deserves a post of its own.

In Guatemala there is a literacy rate of 69% (CIA World Fact Book). Approximately 50% of Guatemalan children under the age of 5 suffer from chronic undernutrition.

Poverty is nothing I haven't seen before, and Guatemala, compared to other countries I have worked in, was quite prosperous. That said, there are high rates of child labour and high levels of discrimination against indigenous people. The child labour and begging was higher than in many countries I have been to and was very prevalent, particularly in Antigua (begging) and in the rural areas and Mayan villages (labour).

During my trip I read the book Damned Nations by Samantha Nutt (who graduated from my University!) It was a great read- she is obviously very knowedgable about international development and has a huge amount of experience. I agreed with 95% of what she wrote (there are a few points in which I didn't totally agree with, but that's another post). Samantha spent part of the book talking about all the things that good intentioned people do wrong. People with big hearts who want to 'help', but end up causing more harm than good. Having done some of these things myself, I recognize changes that need to be made and that I am still learning. I found her words very helpful.

One thing of particular interest, which I have been feeling for a long time, was her talk about orphanages. Particuarly after the earthquake in Haiti, hundreds of people around the world wanted to swoop in and build orphanages to take care of the newly orphaned Haitian children. Good intentioned, yes, but incredible damaging to the children and to the future of Haiti. With so much money going into orphanages, families began giving their children up to orphanages hoping for them to have a better life. In no way is this sustainable, but more importantly, no orphanage is a replacement for a family and many children who grow up in orphanages become damaged adults. Certainly moving forward I have decided that I won't be supporting orphanages, however I do feel like there is an exception- children with special needs.

As anyone reading my blog knows, I have a passion for special needs and I support an orphanage in India for children with special needs. All of these children were abandoned by their families and many were left to die in hospitals or government orphanages. In the future, when countries become more developed, certainly I hope that orphanages for all children won't be needed, but having seen the conditions that these children are left to die in, I absolutely think that this is an exception to the rule and that orphanages for children with special needs must continue until no child is left dying because of their disabilities.

Getting back to Guatemala...

Two blocks from my hotel in Antigua was a huge yellow building, Hermano Pedro (named after the saint who lived in Guatemala in the 1600's and did a lot of great work to support the poor). Part of Hermano Pedro's mission included caring for over 300 people, providing services mainly to disabled adults and children who live within the compound, but also supporting others through a malnutrition ward and other ill patients who come for healing and care.

My time in Guatemala was so packed, and I wasn't really available to fully invest myself into learning more about Hermano Pedro, but I was thrilled to be able to head over early one morning for about an hour to visit and learn more about what they do. I walked in and was directed to the children's area. I passed a courtyard where adult men, all in wheelchairs, sat, and continued on to the children. I arrived to about 30 kids, again all in wheelchairs, sitting in a big courtyard. There were 3 women there. Two were folding laundry and one was cleaning wheelchairs. None were interacting with the kids at that point, as they had work to do. I quickly explained in Spanish why I was there and asked if I could help.

One staff member brought me over to the kids and pointed out the most able of the bunch, Leslie. She appeared to have autism, although was unable to stand or walk- whether from cerebral palsy or from early neglect, I am not sure. She was also blind. I quickly learned that she was a favourite of the staff, and so they asked me to take her out of her chair and play with her. I did. The women all called to her, calling her princesa. She had earrings on and pink shoes on her feet and appeared very loved. I put Leslie back in her chair, and looked over the other children, making my way to each one and kissing them, cuddling them, talking to them. The carers quickly took Leslie back out to sit with them as they folded laundry. The other kids remained in their chairs, although another staff member turned music on to stimulate them a bit. I had such a hard time choosing who to take out of their chair next. I may sound judgmental of the women for not interacting with the other kids, but that is not at all how I feel. Three women can only do so much. Caring after one special child, I have learned, is a full time job for one person. It must be really difficult for the staff to decide how to manage their time; feeding kids, cleaning, doing laundry, giving meds, sweeping, etc. leaves little time for actually interacting with the kids.

One little boy caught my eye. Already his face is fading from my mind and I wish I could better remember what he looks like, but I would guess him to be around 9 years old. His body was twisted with cerebral palsy and he looked uncomfortable in his wheelchair. He caught my eye every time I walked by, and then he would start crying. I approached him and he grabbed hold of my fingers and wouldn't let go. I learned his name was Carlitos and I held him for the rest of the hour. He squeezed my fingers again but didn't cry when I put him back down. I wonder if he got held again that day?

Yes, I totally agree with Samantha Nutt that orphanages need to be a thing of the past. They are not a healthy environemnt for kids, which is why we don't have them in Canada or the USA anymore. But how do we get to that point? First off, don't support orphanages financially or with your time. Instead, put your efforts into more sustainable projects that promote empowerment.

That said, what about the kids with special needs? The reality is that in a developing country, if parents have work they most likely work long hours trying to scrape together enough money to feed their families. Unlike here in Canada, schools won't accept children with disabilities. There are no day programs or services like physiotherapy easily available. Reality is that these children are abandoned because otherwise, they will be at home in bed all day long. Discrimination and myths about special needs leads parents to feel guilt and shame. Many children are abandoned in hospitals and some are left to die- deemed worthless to society. What do we do about these children? Certainly, orphanages are, in many cases, the only option for their lives to be saved.

I saw a lot of things at Hermano Pedro that I really liked. First, the kids appeared well cared for in the sense that their basic needs were all met. They were, for the most part, plump and well fed. The girls all had earrings and most of the kids had shoes on their feet. Their hair was brushed and in ponytails. Every single child had his own wheelchair. Best of all, they act as an orphanage but also as a support to the children's families. Most of the kids were not there when I visited, as they were at home for the holidays. The parents are encouraged to visit and to take the kids home during holidays. They are able to be a continuing presence in their kids' lives, with the home being more of a long-term respite, which many families here in Canada with children with special needs do, if the kids' needs are too great for them to manage on their own.

Visiting Hermano Pedro was definitely a special experience for me, and one that began my reflecting on the future of kids like Carlitos. What is the best way to care for these kids? How can they be integrated into society and how can families be kept together? Many people say that orphanages need to be closed- is this true for children with special needs as well or are these orphanages more necessary because of their great needs? Lots of questions!

(Note- photos taken from blogs of other volunteers, I did not take any photos).

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Guate and Belize: Caye Caulker

We arrived in Belize City around 10am as we had left so early. The bus was actually quite comfortable, unlike the Guatemalan shuttles we had been used to. I believe we paid 160Q each. Belize City didn't really intrigue me at all- I had no desire to stay there. It was quite run down, from what I could see, and crime rates, mostly gang-related, seem to be quite high. Most websites, travel blogs, etc I had read said to avoid Belize City. We bought a round-trip water taxi ticket to Caye Caulker, 45 minutes away. A small, sleepy island, Caye Caulker is popular with backpackers and was the perfect place for us to spend the last 5 nights of our trip.

We stayed in Tropical Paradise, which was a bit pricy (compared to some of our recent hotels in Guatemala) but worth it. It was our favourite hotel of the trip. We had a big room with a comfy bed, clean bathroom, no bugs, great location. It was on the side of the island opposite "The Split" (where most people hang out) so it was nice and quiet. That said, it only takes 15 minutes to walk to The Split, so we had our privacy at the hotel but could easily walk and spend most of our day at The Split. In front of the hotel was a sandy patch of beach (there is no real beach on Caye Caulker), beach chairs, and a big dock leading out to the Caribbean Sea. This was private for the hotel guests, so most of my mornings and nights were spent sunbathing on the dock, reading in the beach chairs, and stargazing at night.

Caye Caulker's motto is "Go Slow" and that is just what we did. It was perfect after so much busy travel in Guatemala. We relaxed on the sand, went swimming in the bright blue water, ate a whole lot of ice cream, watched the sunsets, stargazed, and just took it easy. A few Caye Caulker highlights:

1) Chicken drop. This is probably the strangest event I have taken part in while travelling! A few girls from work were also on Caye Caulker at the time, so we met up with them one night and headed to the big chicken drop on the sand behind a bar. We paid $2 BBZD ($1USD) each for a ticket. Each ticket had a number on it. On the sand was a big board encircled in a fence. The big board was broken into squares and each square had a number. After a crowd had gathered and purchased tickets, the woman at the bar grabbed a chicken and put him on the board. Everyone cheered for their number as the chicken ran around the board, finally stopping to poop. The winner of the game is the person who has the ticket matching the number that the chicken pooped on. Weird, eh? Another lucky (?) traveller won $50 BZD, and then had to clean up the mess!

2) Random Yoga. This is a company run by a cute little American family living on Caye Caulker with their young babies. I saw a sign in my hotel for this yoga when I arrived and instantly sought them out. They do sunrise and sunset yoga classes on the rooftop of a nearby hotel. On my first day in Caye Caulker, I made it to the sunset class and I absolutely loved it. Not only was it a great class, but the atmosphere was just incredible. I had never done yoga outdoors before, let alone on an island as the sky is beautiful shades of orange and red with the sun setting. It was definitely a highlight of my time in Belize and I only wish I could have dragged myself out of bed for the sunrise class :)

3) The best part of the trip- snorkelling. Chris and I paid $45 BZD to take part in a full day snorkelling trip to Hol Chan Marine Reserve and Shark and Sting Ray Alley. We went with Hicaco Tours where Carlos was our guide, and he brought his two young kids along to get some time in the water with him as they were on school break. The trip consisted first of a visit to Hol Chan Marine Reserve, then to Shark and Sting Ray Alley, then a break for lunch (which was delicious) and then some free time to snorkel on our own (the others were guided where we followed Carlos and he showed us what to look out for) at Coral Gardens. Belize is said to have the second best barrier reef in the world, after Australia's, so this trip was all that I hoped and more. Neither Chris nor I had been snorkelling before so we didn't really know what to expect. As soon as we jumped off the boat into the water and looked down we could see dozens of brightly coloured fish. I spotted an eel in Hol Chan, and moving on to Shark and Sting Ray Alley we saw nurse sharks and huge sting rays, which we were able to touch. We saw one big old turtle by himself and some people saw an octopus (I missed it). It was for sure one of the highlights of the whole trip. We took an underwater camera and it is getting developed now, so I will have pictures soon.

We were both sad to leave Belize because we had such an amazing time! Two great countries that I really loved and would be happy to return to one day.

Guate and Belize: Lanquin and Flores

From Antigua we took a shuttle to Lanquin, Guatemala, in the middle of the country. Lanquin in near Coban, the next largest biggest city, but aside from that there really isn't much here. It was a nice drive, getting to see rural Guatemala, although I did sleep a lot as it had been New Years the night before. Guatemalan shuttles are very uncomfortable and crowded, worse than in other countries I have visited, so it made sleeping hard but I took a Gravol and tried my best! We arrived to a rainy Lanquin where we settled into our hotel, El Retiro. The room was cheap, although we did spot some cockroaches! It was packed full with young backpackers coming for the same reason we were- Semuc Champey. Lanquin is a small town that is closest to the beautiful Semuc. The food was great- dinners were 50Q served buffet style. It was interesting to talk to the other travellers- most were backpacking as we were. We met one couple who were teaching at an international school in Guatemala City and were on their Christmas holidays. We exchanged travel tips.

Neither of us really liked Lanquin. The people weren't overly friendly, unusual for Guatemala, and there really wasn't much to it. It rained our entire time, from the moment we arrived until we left. That said, we only had one day in Lanquin and we really wanted to get to Semuc Champey, the beautiful turquoise pools. Some people did a tour that involved the swimming as well as a trip through the caves and cliff diving, but Chris can't swim so we opted for just going on our own. We paid 20Q there and another 20Q back. We went with our hotel there along with the people on the tour. It was a 45 minute drive- probably the craziest drive I have ever been on. It was in an open back truck with no seats. Chris and 2 others were seated on the bar at the back, going flying over the bumps. I started that way but was sure I was going to fall out, so sat on the floor of the back and put a backpack underneath me to not sit in a puddle. Ours was covered by a tarp but the other truck was open in the rain. It was...interesting!!

We arrived at Semuc and the group went off to the caves. We made our way to the pools and it is even more beautiful than pictures can show. We put our feet in, but then it began pouring rain so we waited in a cave until it let up. At that point, another group had arrived so we were brave enough to ignore the rain, now just spitting, and go for a swim. Little fish circled and nibbled on our feet as we waded. After about 2 hours, we found a guy headed back to Lanquin and got a ride in the back of his car, along with a few other Guatemalans. We then walked from Lanquin to our hotel. The rain continued and the power went out again. We weren't sad to leave Lanquin behind and continue on to Flores!

Flores is a cute little town with not much to do, but good for relaxing and for visiting Tikal, the famous Mayan Ruins. El Remate is a smaller town a bit closer, but seemed to be similar to Lanquin so we opted for the larger and more comfortable Flores. It is practically an island, with just one road leading to mainland. We stayed in Hotel Mirador Del Lago and we liked it. It was clean, with a lakeside view and a comfortable bed and private bathroom. We spent a day hanging around Flores (there really isn't much to do here) and the next day left bright and early (4:30am!!) on a shuttle to Tikal. The tour guide offered later tours, but really pushed the earliest one, and we were glad we took it. Not many other tourists had arrived yet, so the park was empty and we were able to really enjoy the ruins and the animals as the sun rose.

I have never visited Mayan ruins before and found it really interesting. Tikal is a UNESCO World Heritage Site and reached its peak during the Classic Period- 200 to 900 AD. We spent about 3 hours on a guided tour seeing the temples, the monuments, and learning about the way of life of the Maya people. We had watched the movie Apocalypto (about the Mayan people in Mexico) the night before, and although the movie is very Hollywood, it definitely peaked my interest in what I would learn at Tikal.

Flores felt very different than Antigua. We had many days of long hour travelling at this point (7 hours from Antigua to Lanquin, 8 hours from Lanquin to Flores) and had a 5 hour trip from Flores to Belize City ahead of us. While I was sad to leave Guatemala (and Spanish!) behind me, I was definitely ready to relax and stay in one place for a bit. The day after Tikal, we left at 5am for a 5-hour shuttle to Belize City.